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competition, education, ex, frustration, games, girls, husband, jealousy, law school, marriage, men, procrastination
Dear friends,
As usual, much has transpired recently! Sparing you the drama: I filed my divorce papers last month and have a hearing in a couple of weeks– soon I will be a free woman and I have never felt more liberated. Of course, I wish things could have worked out, but the fact that they did not is no fault of my own, I must say.
In other news, law school is a BEAST! I formed a study group, I have friends, I’m a class representative and on top of it all I have decided to study abroad this summer! Things were and still are going well, but with finals approaching in a month and the pressure becoming more significant, the attitudes of my peers have certainly changed. You see the competitive nature of people bring out the worst in them, but it was to be expected. I have discovered that much of law school is a mental game and you cannot allow yourself to be psyched out. That being said, I have certainly been diligent and I can only hope that it pays off. Not to mention that I shouldn’t be writing on here right now, but I desperately need an outlet.
Some unexpected news today that should not affect me but it does, nonetheless: my ex, X and I, who are still friends and used to talk often? Well, we have not talked since July — for several reasons, most of them attributed to my feeling that he’s full of shit and not having the time to deal with it. Today, however, I decided to send him a quick email to wish his parents well since they are very sick and he volunteered the following information: “Gf just moved in”. WTF? Granted, I was married and that was difficult for him, but I definitely did not volunteer the information of my engagement to him and was, admittedly, annoyed to learn this. X was going to visit me in August, etc, but that never came to fruition and I have never been one to harp on a subject. But now he’s living with some girl!? I shouldn’t care, but I do! It has put me in a very sour mood and distracted me much more than I would have liked. Now, instead of working on my legal memo, I am sitting here thinking about how much boys annoy me, even my latest toy. Bah. Why am I upset!??! I AM SO ANNOYED. I keep telling myself it doesn’t matter and it is better this way, etc, but I cannot help but feel a tinge of jealously.
Well, that is all for my vent! Hopefully I will be able to make more frequent appearances in the near future.
