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I am well aware that a Baklava is the last thing I need to be eating, but it surely is delicious.. especially when brooding.

When I first moved out my husband-of-three-month’s condo, I was relieved, liberated and at peace.  I was happy.  Despite his constant harassing, I was still better off in the comfort of my mother’s condo which I now have all to myself.  Now, the feeling is very much the same but I find myself getting more and more frustrated with the present state of affairs: my ‘husband’ — if one can truly call him that– has not contacted me, his ‘wife’, in over 8 days.  He has reached out in no capacity whatsoever in 8 days.  During the course of our nearly 1 month separation he has never offered me anything, he has never tried to offer support in the least.  It frustrates me because in past relationships I have never been with a man who did not seek to ensure the comfort of his significant other, let alone wife.  Our next counseling session is this Thursday but I am wondering if I can wait that long before telling him that we should simply file the papers.  To me, this is a tremendous slight!  He keeps his distance despite professing to want to “work things out” (which was NOT even CLOSE to the nasty texts he was sending me weeks ago).  He is my husband yet makes no effort to resolve things.  Does he expect me to sit here and be content and complacent?  I feel insulted and angry and part of me wants to pick up the phone and call him out on his behavior!  But I am reluctant, because as it stands, this is only more support to my ultimate decision of a divorce.  GRRRRRR!

 Someone else has also plagued me: X.  Yes.  X never truly left.  We have remained friends, though distant and that friendship has once again emerged into the forefront.  I know what you are thinking as I too have thought of that… but X is currently on my shit list.  He has been blowing up my phone forever, but now I have not heard from him in 3 days AFTER he said he would start texting me daily.  WTF?  So, I have deleted his phone number to prevent me from blowing up at him and if he decides to contact me? Wonderful.  If not: oh, well.  GRRRRR.  Another point of GREAT frustration. 

In other news, I am seriously considering purchasing a MacBook Pro for law school this fall.  Do any of you own a Mac?  I have been a PC girl forever, but as I have encountered some problems with my PCs, the switch is looking more appealing.  I visited the Apple store today and was impressed by how intuitive the OS is.  Unfortunately, I can not afford to shell out the nearly $2,000.00 it would cost for everything (One to One, AppleCare, Word and a few other things), so I will have to wait a few more weeks.  What’s your opinion?  To Mac, or not to Mac?