There really is no question about it: I can be very selfish at times. Maybe it’s the only child syndrome, I don’t know, but I am suddenly overwhelmed with a sense of selfishness. Remember the retail therapy post? The $608 dress? Well, it’s a heft price tag and I have other expenses. The fiscally responsible thing to do would be to find another, less expensive dress, right? That way I am less stressed, my mother and grandmother are less stressed, etc. But why do I feel unable to do so? It’s like.. I cannot let go of this one item I so desperately want and … kind of need. I can justify the dress a hundred times over but it feels so unfair when my mother has her own expenses and issues to deal with and so does my grandmother. Not only that, but MOTHER’S DAY is Sunday and what have I purchased? Nothing! because I spend all of my money at the Renaissance festival. I FEEL HORRIBLE. I talked to Mom about it but she, as usual, doesn’t want anything.

Not only do I feel selfish when it comes to purchasing new items, but sometimes I am selfish in relationships: always demanding to come first and on occasion I raise issues that were not even issues to begin with. Ah, well. The first step is to acknowledge that you have a problem and then work on it, which I am doing!

Mental/Emotional status: Nearing 39%

P.S. I got The Dress