04.30.09

Quarter Life Crisis – whoops, forgot to publish!

Posted in Uncategorized tagged , , , , , , , , , , at 9:02 pm by mmbanana

Non-sequitur: Just discovered this “poll” application for WordPresswhich looks pretty fun.  I flirted with the idea of incorporating it into this post; however, I do not feel my viewership is at a place where it will be functional.  End.

So I am approaching my 25th birthday and I am having a mini-freak out.  My metabolism is going to slow down, I have not taken the LSAT yet and I am *gasp* still not married nor –even worse– in a relationship which means I am an OLD MAID– remember that card game?  Of course, it is no  fault save my own, to a certain extent, because honestly, the clingy guy who is blowing up my phone right now just… is not.. interesting.  Conversely, it is NOT my fault that Atlanta is replete with idiots and players.  Are any of these guys serious?  Do they all have “man parties” and watch the UGA bulldogs games?  I mean, has the male gender REALLY degenerated to such an extent.  Obviously not, but given the majority I would argue, by a stretch, YES they have.

So, what do I want for my quarter-life-crisis Day?  A man, The Sims 3, a new desktop computer and clothes for my new shape.  Ugh, speaking of shape, I have not been to the gym in THREE DAYS and I feel awful.  I even had a donought Friday.

In other rants, upon scanning my previous posts from –OMG– almost a whole year ago!  I realized that many of them revolved around the issue of love –not being in it– and X and all sorts of other tirades that, still, revolved around love.  You know, now that I am approaching my Quarter Life period it is time to have more meaningful posts.  Not that I am forcing myself to produce more meaningful work, no, no, only that now that X is gone I can stop scaling the stone wall veiled by prickly vines of wild roses which did nothing but draw blood– and it hurt.  Now it can heal, my wounds, that is.  Wait– what wounds?  Precisely!

PS- I turned 25 March 22nd!

Degrassi

Posted in Love, boys, men, relationships tagged , , , , , , , , , at 9:01 pm by mmbanana

I am convinced that my life has degenerated into a bad episode of Degrassi. I am involved with “Someone” and “Sister” has a crush on him; however, is everyone is unaware of our relationship which, as of now, is a little strange. He no longer leaves cute status messages (or any status message at all, for that matter), yet continues to ‘flirt’. News: had a discussion about his ex the other day which he conveys that he still has some feelings for. Seriously? What is that? To top it all off, “Sister” is fed up with the friendly flirting he is seems to be showing her and has decided to confront him about the matter. COULD IT GET ANY WORSE. “What if..” it seems to be the guiding question in my life.. “What if” he says he likes her? What if he doesn’t? What if it changes how he and I interact? What if they begin to have regular phone conversations like we do? UGH. Now I have to ask myself: why did I even get involved? Answer: because it felt right.

But feelings can be wrong.

In addition (just to keep piling on the shit) my ex calls me out of the blue!!! And now we are talking as if nothing ever happened! As a matter of fact, he is on speaker typing something while I am writing this entry. klasjdlaksjdlakjskalsjdlaksjdalkjdajlksdfjlskjg

Someone shoot me now and send a real man my way.